dont be such a baby can?
oops, you're not the cute one. =D


cant blog too much bout it, i scared later that baby go and tell his daddy and mommy.
oops, i did it again. =]


well, i had a great chat with tzher k'ng in the afternoon after school few days ago.
we both know why. teehee!
and STOP FINISHING MY COKE!


anyway, i feel like working instead of studying.
i want to open an online shop. lol
i hate SAM! it's like suffocating myself in the water.
gosh! adriana, i want to divorce SAM and marry someone else.

acc and math tests are around the corner and im still wandering around the other side of the corner. fiuck shiat!



xoxo

you know you love me. =]

what goes around, comes around.

so pls think twice before you do something. something awful.

but who knows? maybe sometimes, they are too SMART to realize.

thanks to you. =]

you made the whole class more unite.

you made us closer.

you made us realized how dumb we were to trust you and fooled by you.

you said you never bitch about me.

you said the people you trust are sherlin, adriana and me.

we never thought that you will ever backstabbed us.

and then, the next thing we know is you are the one who was trying to separate us!

we pitied you, we treated you nice!!

but what did you do to repay us?!?!

how dare you!!! you f***er!

i can promise that you will win the oscar for your brilliant acting skills.

but too bad, no one would want to hire you as their actor.

BECAUSE NO ONE LIKES YOU!

even now you're still trying to gain some of our trust.

let me tell you something, you lost!

we wont trust you anymore, anything.

and one thing dude, you seriously watched too much gossip girls.

you thought you were one of them?

yucks.

i told you tzher k'ng.

sometimes, we dint choose to be involved in politics.

but you will never know when did you actually get involved until you found out some awful, shocking surprise.

now, you believe me? =)

♥ xoxo

you know you love me ♥ =p

went to bukit jalil stadium last friday with ashley. yen chi. choc and a few more.

it was our kc high sports day.

some classmates claimed that its such a loss to lose me.

because there's no one to run and win medals for them. hahaha!

well, chill. its not that theres no one.

but admit larh. not as fast as me. except for that gila marcia. lol

friends, i want to. but i cant since im not in Sr3Sc.

gosh! how much i miss you guys weih.

college is so much different from you guys. T_______T

anyway, we took some pictures of course.

i made new friends too.

i mean, i know who were they and they know who am i also.

but you know, not that kind of really know each other one.

just we're too popular in school.lol

so here's the cute girl. ray ray!

and the ugly me. sweat all over.

the worst part that day was theres no one to fetch me home.

due to lots of reasons larh, lazy to tell oll over again.

so this crazy junee told me to ask guys, sambil pulling my top's strap off my shoulder.

hahahahah! i miss you doing all the stupid stuff to make someone laugh like hell. and then zadao weih!

and to be honest, i really did think of doing that.

but its my last last choice to do so.

thank god i dont need to.

i asked ei munn to come and fetch me. she came!

of course its not only because of me larh, im not that powerful. lol

thanks eimunn!! love you.

anyway, theres more pictures actually. but its on FB.

i lazy go and find then post it here. go check my FB out larh. =]

and teressah lam. i have to admit that im so surprised that day that you accompany me to the toilet.

i never thought of we'll befriends again.

really. things were really bad last time. we both had our reasons.

but hey. thanks for approaching to me 1st. thanks for taking the 1st step.

im a coward. and thanks to karyen too, i knew it was you who asked her to teman me.

im not blind. i just decided to act like i dint see anything.

^_____________________^

i read john sim's blog.

i saw a line that says "If a change of environment is what you need, change it."

it makes me think alot.

yes, change it. but thing may not be as easy as you want it to be.

should i? could i? im asking myself. friends. and even Him.

i want to, but how on earth am i gonna do that?!

anyway, thanks to john sim for being adriana's and my coach in math.

you really must have infinity of patience in me.

i barely got any basics in math.

so, thanks alot weih! =]

i used to be happy.

i used to be very fun and crazy.

i used to be very confident.

but im not now.

you wonder why? everything.

studies. relationships. family. anything that you can think of.

i hate myself for being so down so emo. so fragile.

but i just cant help it.

sry readers, i cant blog my major reason for being like this because someone will read my blog.

i will tell if i feel like it, but mostly just to my bestfriends. =)

well, for some reasons, i really really feel like changing course.

maybe to lakeside's business foundation. just like shawn did.

i asked him for opinions. my bestfriends too.

well now its just my decision to make.

whether to move on in SAM or run away then move on in other course?

if i run away, ill waste my dad's 10k++ and 4months.

if i dont, im afraid that i will waste 20k++ and a year.

what should i do? im panic. confused. frustrated. dang!

you know, sometimes. sometimes, how much i wished i was never borned or maybe soon to be dead.

really. i do think like that sometimes. well, most of the time.

i thought of committing suicide more than you can ever imagine.

i wont do that eventually.

im afraid of pain, im pretty scared that God will burn my soul in hell.

thats why im dragging myself to be alive.

but who knows, i keep telling my friends. who knows.

maybe one day, just some day. when im already at that certain point, my brain just stop functioning. stop telling me that i shouldnt do that.

well, just maybe. i dont know and you wont know either. until, who knows.

i hope someone will help me. bring me out of this awful chaos!

after so many things. i realised im weak. i am not strong!

why?!?! i seriously hate this feeling im having. f*ck!

my lifestyle are so different from you, the others.
you sleep at night, wake up in the morning.
but me, the other way.


anyway, since i don't really got many adds from the nuffnang(cant really blame them, cause i got no time to update my blog)
i have another way to earn money. more than what i can get from nuffnang.
you can really earn a lot!
it's nothing dangerous or illegal! trust me.

NO SCAM!



if anyone is interested, text/call me. email also can.
it's better to be asap because i need to make appointment for you.