Ho ho ho! Merry Christmas everyone! Miss me? =] So, how did you guys spent your Christmas? Well, for me, instead of Christmas, I spent my day shopping with Janine and night with my relatives on Christmas Eve. Though not all of my relatives were there, but I felt relieved that I don't need to sing or dance for my presents. Why? That's one of my family tradition since I was born, hate it so much. Gah! =/ Anyway, I forgot to take my present from my closest cousin brother, Jason. It was nice talking to him, he even taught me how to do the exact CPR and some medical knowledge since he's studying in medical field now. I had always like him cause he's the nicest and the most caring one, he always explain and talk to me whenever I have difficulties in my education. I think I'm blessed after all. =] By the way, he told me that I have low blood pressure and my heart is very weak. That's why, don't make me go heartbroken guys. ♥


There's another thing. He's been calling me these few days, I don't know what he's up to, I didn't pick up though, can't bear to take another step, I just don't have the reason to pick up his calls. Don't you think so? I don't want a guy who only wants to have someone to hug when he's feeling lonely, I don't know about him, it's just what I think. =/


Anyway, have you ever listen to one's heartbeats through the stethoscope? It's hard to describe the feeling. It's so beautiful, no, more than beautiful. I can't find any words to describe it, it just make you feel closer to that person somehow. I really hope that there's someone out there would let me listen to his heartbeat. Even imagining it now gives a smile on my face. ♥ =]


Smile, hmm. Reminds me of someone. This someone said that I have a beautiful smile and a sexy legs. Should I trust him? =]

I'm so glad that The Clique had finally hangout on Thursday at Pavillion, but without The Lame-Jenny, it's still a little bit different. And this girl Cartene arh, finally admitted something.lol =]

So everything is as usual, as noisy as ever, as fun as ever. ♥

And oh, realized that Valet Parking is far more worthy than the normal parking. The valet is RM20 and sometimes they would even wipe your car a bit. And the best part is you don't have to look and wait for a parking space, just hand in the key, and they'll do the rest for you. Splendid? So much more better than the lagi expensive normal parking, I think larh. Janine horh? =]

Now, Friday. Hangout with Janine. Jess and WJ. We, well actually Jess told Wei Lin to back off from the hangout cause we really wanted to have our very own essential time. Ganas larh you Jess. Wei Lin, sorry larh. We'll hangout some other time. =/ AHAHAHA! Had Nando's and literally changed our talking spot to Old Town which was just next door of Nando's.lol That's us.

There's this guy arh, very mafan. You know who you are larh huh. XD I'm waiting for you to fetch me in my rural jungle area okay. You better promise I tell you, or else, I'll make you pay. Hmph! *Evil look* =]

First, weeeeeeeeee! I've passed my Undang Test with 46/50. Not bad right? Please tell me it is. =] Well, went to the Pre-L Class today at Hulu Langat this morning. Ended up knowing this new friend, Kar Man, since both of us were too bored during the class. =]

The second thing, I'm feeling guilty right now. I can't tell you what it is, but M, I'm so sorry man. Yeah, I know you told me it's not my fault but still, I'm not feeling that good lerh. T.T



Next, I'm going out with my girls on Thursday and Friday. The Clique on Thursday since Yasmine couldn't make it on Friday cause she's going to Bali that day. I'm not going to envy her since I'm going to Bali during Chinese New Year next year! Weeeeeee! =D 

Okay, back to the topic, hanging out with Janine. Jess. WJ. Wei Lin(guy) & most probably Wei Ling(girl) on Friday. Might be going out with someone after that too. Who arh? lol. It's a secret. =]

R.I.P

I wonder anyone of you know about this news? It's about this guy, A, committed suicide because he couldn't endure the pain after his girlfriend decided to break up with him. I don't know him, he's my friends' friend. Well, news on Facebook spread very fast, that's why I know.

It seems like everyone is blaming that girl, B, for being so cruel towards him. I don't know this girl too but I got to say that it's not fair to her too. When everyone is saying that it's her fault, don't you think that A was more irresponsible? Yes I know that he was really into this girl, but if he really loved her, he won't do this to her, leaving all the responsibilities to her. To me, that's more like demanding. Though I might have tons of people going to hate me for saying this, he was stupid. Does anything changed after he did that? Yea, that girl might feel very regret now, so what? That's just going to make that girl feel guilty, not a piece of sweet memory that would make her smile when she thinks of him. We make choices in our lives, we always have choices even when you think you don't have one, choose the right one that you will not regret.

He's dead now, there's nothing that we can do to make him come back alive. I'll still pray for him to rest in peace though I don't agree his actions.

To live in heart we leave behind is not to die.

Thomas Campbell

P/s: Love is very important, but life weights more. When you don't have your life, how are you going to enjoy the love around you? You're just going to make the people who loves you sad and miserable. ♥

You're The Love of My Life ♥

I hate you so much for making me cry every time I talk to you. It's so heartbreaking when you tell me about your life cause I don't know what to do to make your life better. I have no idea what should I do to cheer you up, the only thing I can tell you is how much I love you, how much I miss you and how bad I want you to be home with me. I've always imagining you being on my side when I'm watching the television, imagining you picking me up from school or maybe shop with me. You've been away from me since I was 5, and I've only seen you once after that. Sometimes, I have to look at your picture to remember how you look like, sometimes, I feel like I'm the only child. Everyone just seems so far away from me, sometimes I just forget that I still have my brothers and sister. But, there's a special bond between us that make us so close together, you're the only one who understands me like no one else do in this family, in this whole wide world.

I've always asked Him why is He so cruel, I really don't understand why He made your life to be this miserable. I don't know how exactly your life is, but I can feel the pain inside me when I think of you, it feels like my heart is being torn apart.

I know there would be so many hard times that you would have your mood swings or emotional problems that would most probably trigger you to do some really stupid stuffs. But please think of me before you took any further actions, I really don't want to lose you. Remember that you'll always have me by your side and you can just say anything, really anything to me. I don't know what I can do to show you my support, but at least I want you to know I'm always there just in case you need someone to listen to, to hang on or even a shoulder to lean on.

No matter what happened to you or what you did in your life, I am and I will always be proud of you. Not because of your achievement or whatsoever, it's only just because you're my brother, as simple as that. You're the love of my life.

P/s: I don't mind to be heartbroken and cry every time we talk, that's the least that I can do to show you my love. I Love You. I'll wait for you to come home, even if it means the rest of my life. ♥

Playboys are nice to see, nice to hold, once committed, your heart would broke. ♥

It just popped out from my head while I was doing nothing in the car. But that is really really true. Of course, there are some exceptional, maybe they've realized that what they did was wrong or they're just getting sick of not being able to hold on to a long-term relationship. But think again, exactly how many of them would do that. =/

Went to Klang about 8am just to try the famous Bak Kut Teh there---Mo Sang Kor. Okay larh, I admit that it was very delicious and they got a very reasonable price, but come one larh. Purposely wake up at 7 in the morning just to have that, a bit err, too exaggerate? =/

Bought some leggings with wholesale price at GM Klang(you can try to buy stuff on their website). It was not bad, but of course not as good as what we got at the mall obviously. But hey, it's just a legging, how many people would actually stop and stare at your leggings. O.O

P/s: Undang test is right around the corner, I'm both excited and nervous. =/ Wish me luck peeps. ♥

我要快乐 =]

I just want to be happy. =]

 

I'm sick of missing you, I'm done grieving about you. I see that you're living a great life, nothing have changed after we separate. I want to be happy from now on. There are plenty of nice guys around me, who knows maybe one of them would like me and I might fall for him too? Friends cheer me up a lot, so you guys continue doing this great job okay?

Clandia, please come back faster. I miss you so much. I miss your craziness that would cheer me up. =]

A Random Fact: I love dark chocolate, a lot. No white chocolate please, it's too sweet for me. ♥

Oh, anyone interested in buying hand-phones? iPhones. Blackberries. Whatsoever. Pm me, i can get you cheaper price cause my brother owns a shop. =]

Watched Ice Hockey Finals just now with Janine. John. Aaron and Suren at Sunway Pyramid. It was very awesome! We shouted CPU CPU! Naj. Hakim. Manny (any name we know that were playing in the game but in reality, we only know Naj) and banging the plastic walls when they goal like crazy people. AHAHAH! =D Though they've lost to Tigers, we still love you! Naj, you're the man! Thanks for inviting us anyway. =]

After the game ended, we went to Wong Kok to chill ourselves since Starbucks was full. And I'm so sorry Naj, I totally forgot about you when I was suggesting to chill there. You don't mind right? *Sob sob* T^T OMG, I feel so guilty now. =/

Oh yeah, one of the best part today was.. We bumped into Cyndy while we were thinking where to have our dinner before the game started. Oh, your parents look kind of nice. I miss you so much! ♥ I want to hangout more!

P/s: Photos taken today are with Janine, let's hope that she will upload them soon so that I can grab and post them here. =]

I can't tell you how much I miss you, how lifeless I am whenever I think of you. My heart is aching when I miss you but I know there's no way that I can look for you. I want to, but I can't. You'll never know how hard was it for me. I dreamed about you last night, I threw myself back to sleep, close my eyes so hard so that I can continue to see you in my dream, but I know it's too good to be true.

You could be sweet dreams or a beautiful nightmare.

I asked myself what if you come and look for me, would I turn my head back or keep moving on? I'll never know the answer, I know I will regret in future no matter what decisions I've made, I'm regretting now. But, I know there's no other choice for me.

When girls are heartbroken, we tend to think a lot. Sometimes, I wonder if what you've told me was true or not. I don't want to know now, it doesn't really matter already, what's done is done, game over. Okay, I admit that I'm still very curious. =/

Just talked to Eimunn on the phone, she advised me about this issue. Thanks babe, love you so much! And good luck in your course and *ahem* arh. Don't forget what you just promised me, Secret Recipe and Coffee Bean! =]

I am currently so into Charice Pempengco's Note to God though it's already very outdated but I still love it so much.

Oh and oh, Happy birthday to 2 of my girls, Jenny and Clandia! We'll find a day and hangout together, everyone seems so busy right now. I miss you all so much! I want our Clique Day! =]

I know what I need now are not flowers. chocolates or presents. I need time. But still, I miss you. ♥