I've already made my mind but I think I need more time to think thoroughly so that I won't regret for my decision in future. Decision will be announced when I'm back from Singapore, should I say stay tuned?

Thanks a lot to my lovely friends for lending me your shoulders for this few days. Especially Janine. John. Chloe. Mervin. Naj. Sherlin. Skyler and Gison. Thanks for listening to me. cheered me up. and explain to me. I would always do the same for you IF you guys have any problems, I really don't mind listening to you all night. You are even welcome to call me in the middle of the night though I might not heard my phone ringing. =]

I want to thanks Manwyn for not forgetting me and included me in the L1 Class Video(you can watch it on my Facebook page), seriously love you to the max! ♥♥♥ I will always remember every single one of you. =]

I'm going to Singapore tomorrow with my brother and his girlfriend, still not sure when I'm coming back, maybe just for a 3 or 4 days. I'll go yumcha with everyone when I'm back. =] Will miss you guys a lot.

Somehow I don't know how to tolerate my heart with yours. I don't even know whether I should. Why don't you tell me instead, huh? Please, just tell me what should I do with you.

Serious shit! What should I do now? There's a cut in my heart now, not too deep but deep enough to have a scar. So I've been thinking whether I can act like nothing happened and give you, or basically us, another chance. I have no idea at all. My friends said that I should just keep going, and give up on you but somehow, it's hard. It's hard to just give up like that without even trying to continue. Yes, I'm weird, maybe I need my heart to be torn apart then only I'll have reasons to stop and back off. =/

If you don't like me, just tell me and break up with me. I rather get hurt now then later when I'm deeper and hard to resist. I wanted to ask, but whenever I hear your voice, my head would turn blank. I don't want to wait if your heart will not be with me.

Baby, relationship isn't something that can be maintained when you put in more effort. It needs more than that, you know? You're so confusing, do you know that? So why not we just keep it straight and make it easier for the both of us?

I just found out that guys in the club are the same. No matter it's someone you just met or a friend you knew for some time. They all use the same tactics and same actions to get a girl. Here's the process ----- Grab a girl and dance with her - Lick her ears. neck. - Kiss her. make out. - Hold her hands everywhere you go. - Voila. Mission accomplish!

Recently, my friend went to the Mist club with her friends and one of her friends danced with her. So you know, the guy started to bite her ears and neck then making out. After everything ended, that guy gave my friend a goodbye kiss before they went home separately. After that day, nothing happened. No text messages. no phone calls. no msn. no nothing. My friend is not some bitch who can go around and kiss anyone. So I insisted her to ask him whether he was just having fun or he has feelings for her too. She finally asked him, and yes, he was just having plain fun. Fuck him hard!

As my friend was telling me about her story, I realize that it was exactly the same with my incident, except that we're together now. But, I just found out that he wasn't really in love with me, he still couldn't forget about his ex. What should I say, he totally made me went speechless. What do you expect me to say? Oh I don't mind, let's continue our relationship or oh, let's break up then. And for your information, I'm heartbroken. Happy?

Everyone warned me about being together with you, EVERYONE! But I wanted to give you a chance, who knows right? Who knows you might really changed? I chose to trust you even if I know that it's hard. They're right, I'm stupid enough for letting myself to be stupid. But I never regret for what I've done.


Until now only I know why the girls always turn off their hand-phones in the dramas.

Yesterday was freaking awesome man! Went to Sunway Pyramid with Janine. Aaron. Marissa. Amelia. Cyndy and John. Can you imagine 7 people packed in a Hyundai Matrix? Amelia and I were stuck at the front seat. Phew, thank god there were no police along the way. And I turned Amelia on for sitting on her lap. O.O

Had our lunch at the T-Bowl Restaurant or whatever that name is. The food was not really that nice, totally overrated. Not to mention, their service was seriously suck. Our food was served late, very late. Always forgot to bring the right and enough cutlery. What else? It's like an oven in there. =.=" Walk walk walk for don't know how long, finally got my popiah and off we went to the skating rink. =]

Ate my popiah while waiting for Suren, the very late comer, we insisted him to skate. I know he had a really great time though. =P Bumped into Naj who's an ice hockey player. So oh you know how well he can skates. So yeah, kept on showing off in front of me, and kept on frightening me as I was holding Aaron's hand but still he fell 2 or 3 times. And me? Thanks to Suren, once. =/ But ahahaha! God is watching, he fell right in front of me about a minute later. Ahh, who asked you to make me fall? Your fault! =P


Went for a movie after ice skating and dinner at McD with Janine. John. Suren. Clandia and Naj of course. We watched Takers, and it was my 2nd time. But I didn't fell asleep cause John and Suren were making fun of that movie, and Naj doing all those stupid sounds beside me. Guys...lol

The movie ended at 10 something. Thought everything ended and we went home? Aha! You're wrong, we went ice skating again! Only us, no one else. Without paying and it's already 11something. Awesome huh? Naj said we'll try going to Sunway Lagoon for free next time. Weeeeee! ♥♥♥ Love you all so much weih seriously. =D


Someone didn't contact me for days already, I wonder why. hmph! =/

I've been going out a lot with Chloe recently. Most of the time shopping. And OMG! I spent a lot weih. Unbelievable! Chloe, it's all your fault for asking me to  bring you shopping. I am officially broke now. T.T

We went to Mid Valley on Saturday and I spent a little more than RM300. Blame F.O.S for most of it. Sunway Pyramid yesterday, shopping again obviously, for about RM200. Slap me please!


We reached at the Pyramid at 10something in the morning. Met up with Jane, had our breakfast at McD then off we went to the skating rink. I learned how to back-skate. Woohooo! =] Met this guy called Alan at the rink who knows how to skate so awesomely. He worked at the rink before, so maybe that's the reason. He's kinda funny cause he said he couldn't teach or talk to us much since his girlfriend was there watching him. AHAHAHAH! We skated until 4pm and that's when Jane went home with someone.lol So shopping shopping shopping. There goes my money. T__________T


At around 8something, we decided to watch a movie since we don't want to go home so early. We bought tickets for the Unstoppable. Chilled ourselves at Secret Recipe for a piece of Dark Chocolate Cheesecake and a cup of hot Caffe Mocha. Mmhmm. And go watch Unstoppable, it's a nice movie. It's so intense all along the movie, made me wanted to bite my nails.lol =]


Naj is having an ice hockey game tomorrow night but don't think that I can go without Janine. =/ So sorry mann, but I'll be your cheerleader next Feb, I promise, of course, only if you would ask me again. Go give your best shot tomorrow night! =D


Janine just asked me out to skate in Thurs with Aaron. Mervin Mervin. Are you going tomorrow? Remember what you've promised me the other day? I'm waiting. =P AHAHAHAH!

Sometimes, friends are much more lovely than my family. They do things for you when you're exhausted. Treat you when you're broke. Be there for you when you're sad or happy. Family loves me very much, more than a friend would feel for you but somehow they just don't know what you really want. True?

I was so sad yesterday. We went into this watch shop then my mother asked me not to hold my super freaking old hand-phone in my hands cause it's so embarrassing as I was carrying a Coach bag. Then I took this chance to talk to my dad about the iPhone 4 I want and which I had told him a million times. He said it's not worth it and asked me to choose for another phone. Asked me what about choosing a Sony Ericsson or Nokia hand-phone instead of an Apple.

Back to my brother's house, I used my brother's iPad to show my dad all the SE phones and told him that the price range is about RM1000++ so why not another thousand to get more free applications and great features in an iPhone?! As I was browsing the web page, tears were rolling down already. Now you know how much I want an iPhone for myself. T.T Thank god Daniel called me that time and gave me an excuse to get away from there. But  everyone can see that I'm so upset  that time. It was so obvious alright. =/


Told this to my friends and my friend from USA offer to buy me one with a freaking crazy low price and bring it back for me, if I want to. =] Love you so much mann. Oops, don't get jealous okay my Mr. Boyfriend. You know I love you more. ♥


And thanks Micah for cheering me up with all his freaking funny jokes. =]
Listen to this. I ate my cereals and I accidentally stepped on it, does that make me a cereal killer?
AHAHAHAHA! Sorry, I'm still able to laugh though I already knew this joke for hours. =]


I won't left you out larh Hawt Mervin. Thanks for chatting with me though your mom already scolded teased you for sleeping so late. Thanks for being ugly because of me.lol was it only me? =/

♥ I miss you Mr. Boyfriend. ♥